Been a while....

Well, it's definitely been a while since I've done the whole blog thing. I feel like I may have a build up of words and at some point may just regurgitate them. Not right this second though.

At the moment I'm just a little frustrated. I'm on medication for this adrenalin thing or whatever, but I take a certain amount and I get ridiculously exhausted and tired all day OR I take less and maintain this ridiculous mood swings. Wednesday I had such a fantsatic day, the whole day went smoothly, I enjoyed all my classes, got home and Jed was in a great mood too. We went and got some hot chips for dinner and just spent the whole afternoon/night laughing and giggling - it was just so perfect! Then yesterday I woke up and it was one of those everything that can go wrong does kind of days. I just couldn't get ahead yesterday, I spent the afternoon in tears trying to make it stop and I just couldn't help but feel that it might be this silly medication. I know it was an accumulation of a whole bunch of little things yesterday, but I'm not normally that emotional when it comes to the little things like that, sure I throw a good hissy fit now and then but not break down sobbing like I did. I guess I just felt kind of helpless? I tried and tried to make it stop but I just had to wait it out. Maybe I just needed a cry?

So that was Thursday, and today felt like it was going to be better - but the assignment I wrote this morning sounds nothing like what I wrote on Monday (one portion of why I broke down yesterday - it disappeared from my laptop and usb). I also had to drop my car in for a service this morning and my housemate had agreed to pick me up and drop me at uni, as I was under the impression that she was working and would be easy. Turns out she was in town, wasn't working and didn't end up turning up as it was quicker for me to walk to uni then to wait for her to eventually turn up. So, I walked. And then it rained. I feel like my life the past two days has turned into some terrible chick flick where it's just this accumulation of bad things. Almost waiting for myself to somehow fall into a large, putrid puddle of mud. Just based on statistics.

I don't want to be wishing my life away, but I'd sure like for this week to be over so I can start fresh next week...