This weekend nearly marks one year with my boy. Tuesday will be it officially. I honestly never thought we'd get this far. When I first met him, this was never my intention.

I guess fate stepped in.




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Cruise countdown!

Nightmares...

I've had about 5 nightmares this week. I'm over it. It's not just one recurring one either, it's been a bunch of different ones. It was at the point last night where I was afraid to go to sleep. I just want a solid's night sleep.

Mumford & Sons - The Cave

Counting down the weeks till I get to see these guys!!

Awaiting the end

I've loved this uni ride. I have. I've been to some fantastic places, met some fantastic people, but I am going to be beyond happy when I walk out of that last exam. And I'll walk out with my head held high. Now - I'm just starting to get terrified about what I'm supposed to do afterwards. I still want to work in Africa. I want to travel - I want to see the Northern Lights, dance with the locals in Rio, walk through a thousands year old building in Europe, feel the majesty of Stonehenge. I don't know - I'm pretty sure I don't want to stay in Cairns. Fairly certain actually. But the whole "falling in love thing" has complicated that, Jed wants to move to the tablelands, I mean sure, if I can get a good job up there in my field (which there are plenty of up there - it's just a matter of getting one) I'll give it a go. But it won't be enough. I know it won't be. I'm too hungry to learn and experience to settle down just yet, and I've tried to explain that to him but what we perceive as learning and experiences seem to be on a different level. It's still early days though, and I'm not giving up on this without a fight, but I'm too young and I'm dreaming too big to not go out and try it... Boys appear to complicate everything. i know I love him, and right now I'm with him, so I'll graduate and then I guess we see what happens from there. Hence my terrified state.

The Kony Issue

The Kony project. The Invisible Children have released movie #11 - a powerful, shocking film that allows these hardships to be brought to light -
http://vimeo.com/37119711

So people can be fully informed, there is some criticism of Invisible Children, the people behind the Kony 2012 campaign. Read about it here http://visiblechildren.tumblr.com/, and here http://ilto.wordpress.com/2006/11/02/the-visible-problem-with-invisible-children/



I understand what these two are saying ^ 'we' as a whole cannot ride in on a white horse and save the day, but I am still choosing to support the cause, perhaps not with the charity itself BUT the world needs to become aware of the truth. Yes, peace may have fallen in Uganda - but the IC state that in their movie. They are encouraging intervention, and at no point do they say 'kill Kony', they want to STOP him. One of the main arguments in one of these articles is that there is peace in Uganda and South Sudan - the fact is, Kony is still residing somewhere in Congo, last time I researched (last week) it is STILL a wartorn country. The mental health of the people of the Congo must be falling apart, think about it - having your nation already ripped apart by war, and knowing that somewhere out there is the leader of LRA of Uganda. Hiding, waiting. One article says he's starving to death? If they can't find Kony, how can they know that he's starving, how do they not know that he's not inflicting the same pain on families of Congo? I support the cause, and I encourage the continued support of the people of Central Africa to FIND THEIR FEET, and let them regain their independence and freedom. We cannot support them forever, as a nation they need to become their own people again, but everyone deserves help to find their feet when they've hit rock bottom. I support them...Just needed to say my piece.

Passenger - Diamonds ft. Simon R. Berckleman (Philadelphia Grand Jury)

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Been a while....

Well, it's definitely been a while since I've done the whole blog thing. I feel like I may have a build up of words and at some point may just regurgitate them. Not right this second though.

At the moment I'm just a little frustrated. I'm on medication for this adrenalin thing or whatever, but I take a certain amount and I get ridiculously exhausted and tired all day OR I take less and maintain this ridiculous mood swings. Wednesday I had such a fantsatic day, the whole day went smoothly, I enjoyed all my classes, got home and Jed was in a great mood too. We went and got some hot chips for dinner and just spent the whole afternoon/night laughing and giggling - it was just so perfect! Then yesterday I woke up and it was one of those everything that can go wrong does kind of days. I just couldn't get ahead yesterday, I spent the afternoon in tears trying to make it stop and I just couldn't help but feel that it might be this silly medication. I know it was an accumulation of a whole bunch of little things yesterday, but I'm not normally that emotional when it comes to the little things like that, sure I throw a good hissy fit now and then but not break down sobbing like I did. I guess I just felt kind of helpless? I tried and tried to make it stop but I just had to wait it out. Maybe I just needed a cry?

So that was Thursday, and today felt like it was going to be better - but the assignment I wrote this morning sounds nothing like what I wrote on Monday (one portion of why I broke down yesterday - it disappeared from my laptop and usb). I also had to drop my car in for a service this morning and my housemate had agreed to pick me up and drop me at uni, as I was under the impression that she was working and would be easy. Turns out she was in town, wasn't working and didn't end up turning up as it was quicker for me to walk to uni then to wait for her to eventually turn up. So, I walked. And then it rained. I feel like my life the past two days has turned into some terrible chick flick where it's just this accumulation of bad things. Almost waiting for myself to somehow fall into a large, putrid puddle of mud. Just based on statistics.

I don't want to be wishing my life away, but I'd sure like for this week to be over so I can start fresh next week...