WOOT!! I did it - I successfully completed my first semester of Uni. And fingers crossed to successfully PASSING my first semester of uni - here's hoping!!
It's amazing the difference you can feel with just knowing that you don't have any study to do. I had a coffee this morning with Kat and said at one point - I think I'm gonna have to head off I have to get home. And Kat said - oh have you got stuff to do? and i was like yeah i have...NOTHING at all!! Hahahahaha. It's just a habit - I feel like I'm forgetting to do something studyish but there isn't anything for me to study right now!! Awesomeness.
Three whole days of knowing I don't have to study. Then back into it on Monday. But I'm feeling positive about the chem class. Much more positive. It's only one subject to focus on and I can give it my wholehearted attention. The countdown is on for my one week holiday and I can assure you I will use the time VERY cleverly :-D
Thursday, June 17, 2010
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
Frustrations
Feeling frustrated. These last two weeks have really dragged out with my exams - I've got just one left on Thursday night thankfully but it's just been a long, tiring two weeks.
I'm just feeling frustrated with life more than uni at the moment. I'm tearing my hair out staying out home, but i can't afford to move out - not with Thailand around the corner anyway. I feel like she's suffocating me and that I'm going to snap soon, I can't handle her being the 'victim' all the time, she's not helpless, she's highly capable but she doesn't act it sometimes and I just can't keep my patience. I try. Oh, I try. But I don't want to have to take care of her - I already feel like I have to sometimes and it drives me mental.
I need space and I need to find my feet. Maybe Townsville next year would be ok, although I suppose to find space I don't have to move that far away. But then, if I stay up here will I continue to feel like I have to go round and see her all the time? I don't want to feel like I HAVE to visit, I want to visit because I WANT to.
Think I just need to get out. I'm feeling boxed in.
I'm just feeling frustrated with life more than uni at the moment. I'm tearing my hair out staying out home, but i can't afford to move out - not with Thailand around the corner anyway. I feel like she's suffocating me and that I'm going to snap soon, I can't handle her being the 'victim' all the time, she's not helpless, she's highly capable but she doesn't act it sometimes and I just can't keep my patience. I try. Oh, I try. But I don't want to have to take care of her - I already feel like I have to sometimes and it drives me mental.
I need space and I need to find my feet. Maybe Townsville next year would be ok, although I suppose to find space I don't have to move that far away. But then, if I stay up here will I continue to feel like I have to go round and see her all the time? I don't want to feel like I HAVE to visit, I want to visit because I WANT to.
Think I just need to get out. I'm feeling boxed in.
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