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Sometimes I just feel really down, like today. I'm tired, I'm a bit stressed because of this exam and I'm feeling, I don't know...trapped? No, I don't know if that's the right word. I just don't feel right. Hopefully it's just a severe need for a good stress-free sleep.

I'm having doubts about different things and it's hard for me to tell whether I'm just scared, stressed and using that as an outlet or whether they're real. Perhaps a little lost is what I'm feeling, I'm not sure. I know my heart's hurting a bit, but again, I hope it's just a bit too much stress and not enough deep sleeps.

Time will tell.

I need a hug.

Chemistry...grrr

Ahhh Chemistry, I thought that when i started this course maybe I would discover a new found interest in you and finally be able to enjoy and appreciate the science you involve. But no. I now clearly remember why I changed classes in High School. I hate Chemistry. Luckily for me, my chosen career will have very little to do with chem, if any.

I definitely still don't like chemistry. I'm just not interested at all, nothing really sucks me in and captivates me, it's a struggle sitting through the lectures, the most exciting thing about this intensive is the prac classes - because we get to go home early!! Two more weeks, two tests and one exam. Almost there.

OH and the best thing? I took 3 days off work in the final week of semester break so that I can actually have a holiday and it turns out that our final exam date has been changed, to the last day of my small 3 day holiday, so my restful days are now study days. Hooray me!! I think i will be glad when next semester is over - no more chem classes ever after that!! Bring on Christmas!!! :-D