He came over today, he found something else of mine. and was just dropping it over.
He was so happy, smiling, even gave mum a hug. Not me though. He didn't hug me. I don't know if that's a good thing or not.
I thought I'd cried out all the tears, but I guess not, they're still in there.
I smile like I'm supposed to, laugh when I'm expected, but I still feel empty inside.
Everyone keeps saying it's time, that time is what I need, but time seems to be crawling.
It's actually frustrating, one day I'll feel fine, feel like I'm ready to move on, like I've got myself sorted and then something like today happens.
Baby steps.
That's perfectly normal... By time they meant months, not days or weeks... Give it real time. Find the things that make you happy, the distractions, put your energy into them and the next thing you know time will have passed. But it won't start feeling better till you make it. Get out there and do something fun. Something that makes you feel good about you.
ReplyDeleteI went for a run yesterday. My first run in about 3 weeks :S but didn't stop for 42 minutes halfway up the gorge and back. 4.8k. I was happy with that :) Studying doesn't exactly make me happy but I'm doing it coz I have to and it helps pass time, but I've started reading again, that helps :) it's just a matter of finding time between study and work at the moment to squeeze it in.
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